Unlocking Pleasure: Overcoming Resistance and Embracing Vulnerability on the Orgasmic Journey, Day 6

What if the journey to unlocking true pleasure begins with confronting your own resistance to joy?" On day six of our 28-day orgasmic reset journey, I faced the unexpected challenge of a weekend reluctance to self-care, making me question the belief systems that hold us back from receiving happiness. Saturday's struggle became an opportunity to explore how deeply ingrained feelings of being unvalued can inhibit our capacity for pleasure. Through breathwork and self-reflection, I uncovered a powerful insight, allowing a transformative shift to take place.

Join me as I share candid moments from my self-pleasure practice where the absence of a trusty vibrator led to a surprising discovery with a glass dildo. This wasn’t just about physical sensation but a lesson in patience, slow sensuality, and embracing vulnerability. As I navigated this deeply personal experience, I invite you to reflect on what barriers might be holding you back from the love and satisfaction you deserve. Let's explore how rewriting our internal narratives can pave the way for lasting joy and fulfillment.


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Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:01

hey, babe, welcome back. This is day six of 28 of the orgasmic reset journey and I hope that you have been playing along with me and experiencing some healing and some pleasure, and I'd love to know what's coming up for you, and you can leave me comments below. And for me, today was the hardest day thus far. I was like you know from the like, getting myself to start was challenging, but today I was like I don't want to do this. It was like why did I pick 28 days in a row? This? It was like why did I pick 28 days in a row? Couldn't I have just done a month like weekdays with the weekends off, and not have to quote work on the weekends? Um, so I think my body was like it's Saturday, we want to take a break, we don't want to work, but work, baby, it's pleasure, it's pleasure. And so that really shows how I am and perhaps you are resistant to receiving the love and the pleasure and the sex and all the good things that we actually really do desire. So we're desiring it and it is available to us in this form, in some form or another, and we're like no, I don't want it, it's too hard, it's not how I want it exactly. And so that's why, 28 days all the way through, it's recreating new pathways of pleasure and deservability in our brains and our bodies and increasing the capacity to hold pleasure right because there might be a little bit of like I don't actually deserve to feel this good all the time.

Speaker 1: 1:59

So, reprogramming those belief systems and I may have had a little bit of like. Oh, this is going to be. You know, this is going to be hard, because I did a breath work before the practice and you know I am asking as I go what is it that I am? What is it that I am? What is it that I am? What I, what I can, what is it possible to release and transform today? And what came through was that I was releasing the grief of not feeling valuable, so it was already uncomfortable before I started.

Speaker 1: 2:47

And so I'm upstairs, I'm starting this self-pleasure practice and these belief systems pop into my head and I actually had to stop in the middle and write it down. You know I was like I don't want to forget what exactly has come up for me, and I did a little muscle testing, as we do in theta healing, to find out what levels I was holding this belief that came up because, um, my subconscious or the divine or whatever was speaking to me, was telling me. The beliefs were I'm not valuable on more than one level of my being and I am not valued on three out of four. So it was some big stuff to shift and I was like I'm also in kind of a hurry if I want to get this vlog done before I have to leave, which clearly I didn't. I'm not sitting here in bed with you.

Speaker 1: 3:58

This is my first day of having a big space in the middle, but I took notes, so it's okay. A big space in the middle, but I took notes, so it's okay. Um, and I'll probably talk for a shorter amount of time today, since I went over yesterday, um, balance and all you know, I like that, and so I'm I'm self-pleasuring and I'm like, okay, I want to, I want to speed along the process. So I reach for my vibrator and it's like, I'm like okay, okay, okay, fine, fine. I mean, I was mostly just like in pleasure in this still space of holding my body and, um, I may as well just go ahead and say it right, this is, this is a, a space of vulnerability, just with my hand holding my vulva and like slight, slight movements, there was, there was this pleasure arising and it was slow and it was gentle. And so when the, the vibrator had no juice left in it, I was like, all right, we all we're just gonna use this lovely glass dildo.

Speaker 1: 5:11

And it turned out that that was so perfect because it was such a deep and sweet and gentle, slow practice where I could be on this completely different vibrational plane, energetic plane, sensational difference of of deepness and slowness and sensuality, and just allowing, like, well, whatever it's gonna be, it's gonna be. And so it was. It was really this like juicy, oceanic, sensual experience. And and then I muscle tested those beliefs again, the I am valuable, no, and I am valued, no, they had changed. So the belief system changed within me and the grief was released purely through this slow, sensual, delicious pleasure.

Speaker 1: 6:35

And this, you know, it wasn't the experience that I was necessarily looking for. It definitely wasn't the experience I thought it was going to be, because sometimes, you know, it's big, big, big emotions and big sensations and big tears and and um, and you know, allowing the body to do whatever she wants to do. Um, but this was, it was so magic and it's like. You know, I know my, my guides told me that this is what I'm here to teach is healing and transforming and alchemizing through pleasure, which is so funny, because when they told me, I was like, are you sure, yeah, we're sure process of actually learning this in a in a whole new way and a completely different level than I ever have.

Speaker 1: 7:33

Because, you know, I have been saying for a long time, with all of the drama and trauma and pain and grief in my life, I'm ready to evolve through joy, I'm ready to evolve through pleasure, and this was, this was a market experience, in that usually I'm like, okay, well, you know, I'm, I'm in this self-pleasure experience in bed, or I'm on the dance floor and I'm crying, and you know like I'm, I'm moving to the music and I'm still having a pleasurable experience, even though I'm like weeping on the dance floor and having these very, you know, letting my body move however it needs to move, which sometimes can be very strange and probably looks, probably looks very strange, but it was all, all pleasure this time. And I feel like it's been a long time since I've had that experience, probably because I've been in so much resistance to living in pleasure and to doing this process, even though God was telling me over and over and, over and over and over that this was what I was supposed to do and that I was supposed to share with you about it, and that this was actually what was gonna be, what changed my life in the way that I wanted to change. So here we are, finally and, um, let's see if anything I have my notes here If there's anything else I really want to say today. Um, no, I think we're good and I will see you tomorrow, and I'm sending you so much love and I hope that your process, whatever it is, is, um, is blessed and graceful.

Speaker 1: 9:33

Thanks for listening to this episode of the good, the bad and the sexy. I hope that it served you in some way and, if it did, please reach out to me on instagram at the good, the bad and the sexy, and tell me about it. Also, is there someone in your life who needs to get in on this conversation? I would love it if you would share the show with them. It's so much more fun to talk through these things together. Remember to get your free follow along. Orgasmic alchemy self pleasure audio guide in the show notes below. I look forward to connecting with you again next time. Ciao for now.