Embracing Self-Love: A Journey Through Emotional Eating and Healing, Day 11

Energy Healing @6.35 for emotional eating and nourishing the inner child.

What if the path to emotional healing lay hidden in the most mundane of places, like a hot tub in Texas Hill Country or a childhood memory tied to ice cream? Join me on day 11 of the orgasmic alchemy portal as I recount my raw and deeply personal journey with emotional eating and the digestive challenges that come with it. This episode is a candid exploration of my attempts to engage in a heartfelt dialogue with the energies within my own body, revealing the often uncomfortable truths about self-acceptance and healing. Through dance and introspection, I endeavor to embrace every part of myself, even those pieces that feel icky and hard to love.

Reflecting on a time when my mother's absence led me to seek solace in junk food, I uncover the profound links between nourishment, love, and emotional fulfillment. These reflections guide me to a place of compassion and understanding, as I strive to transform these ingrained behaviors into a healthier relationship with myself. It's a journey of acknowledging the past and how it shapes us, while fervently praying for the strength to accept and love every piece of ourselves—moles and all. This episode is an invitation for you to witness and possibly find parallels in your own path toward self-love and acceptance.


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Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:01

Hey babe, it is day 11 of this orgasmic alchemy portal. I'd love to know where you're at. Are you doing the practices? Are you enjoying? Are you struggling? Can you leave me a comment or send me a DM? So, day 11, I'm here in a hot tub, living life Well, living someone else's life, briefly. But I'm out here in the Texas Hill country enjoying and um.

Speaker 1: 0:32

So I wanted to continue with what was coming up yesterday this emotional eating thing I'm working through and I was dancing through it this morning and wanting to uncover what's really happening in my digestive system, all this digestive challenges and the emotional eating on top of that, which is like exacerbating whatever else is happening One way or the other, one on top of the other. I don't know, um, but so I was at dance this morning and trying to feel into the energies in my digestive tract, um, to have a little, you know, have a dialogue, and I projected it out in front of me and it was just, I was grossed out. I was like that looks dirty and icky and I don't want to have anything to do with it. And I know that there is tremendous transformative healing power in love and acceptance and when we can love and accept all of our pieces, we can integrate them and we can be one and we can come into that enlightenment experience. I fully intend to become enlightened in this lifetime. I mean, I already am and I'm just not allowing myself.

Speaker 1: 2:08

Okay, different story. Okay. So I was like I really I know that I it would be advantageous to love and accept this part of me, but I am so grossed out by it. There's no way I can like wrap my arms around this piece of me and tell it it's beautiful and I love it and I accept it, and all the things Like I just couldn't. And I think that was like maybe the first time in my life where I wasn't just like yes, of course, I accept, you, come here and let me hold you, you beautiful, wounded piece of me.

Speaker 1: 2:52

So, I was present with it and you know I prayed for help to be willing to love it and accept it. Be willing to love it and accept it. I know that when we are willing, it opens up a gap where spirit can step in and take over and help you actually do the thing, feel the thing, believe the thing. So I asked God don't need me willing to love and accept this piece of me, because I couldn't. I was just disgusted and I think it lessened a little bit. I definitely didn't get all the way through it, like this is some some big stuff, um, but I think it was supportive. And then I, um, you know, I asked for it to be cleansed in divine light so all of the all of the ick will be washed away, all the trauma and the drama and the abuse. And then I was overwhelmed with the know-it-ness that this was a piece of me that was just starving for love, starving for love Like eating, like a monster, because she's starving for love and definitely compassion there, which is a great place to be at with oneself. And I will continue to stay in the compassion. And then I had this memory that I frequently or not frequently it's come to the forefront of my mind a few times when I consider what's happening in this realm, in my life. And my mom would go away for what seemed like very large amounts of time when I was young, never very present, but this is like actually like leaving the house, and when she would, I would go eat as much ice cream as I felt like I could eat without anybody really noticing me getting in trouble, and I would eat whatever junk food I could find in the house, like whenever my mother was away from the home. And I think that I felt like that was that space where I could go get, like that was that space where I could go get what I needed, even if it wasn't actually what I needed, since food was this association of nourishing love, something that is there for you, something in that way, in that different relationship I was creating with food and the energy of food not being something that asked anything back for me and you know I was never in trouble with and you know the food didn't shame me, so it felt like a safe place to be nourished, slash, loved.

Speaker 1: 6:18

Last thing, I was doing a reading with my guides for myself and trying to just get a little information on how to support myself through this. And they said, to cut cords between me and sugar, between the energy of sugar, between the industry of sugar, between the industry of sugar, between the nefarious forces that are hiding all the sugar in the food we're eating, that are pushing the sugar, that are making the sugar accessible in a way that, like we're not going to be able. It's almost like you can't say no sometimes, just like putting it where they could be. Putting other things, like all the tricky psychological things that are happening and the hiding of it and the not you know how hard is it to find food without sugar, as you know, if you're not the sort of person who makes all of your own food, and in a million different words, I have the sugar. So even if you're looking out, there's a new word for it, so you didn't know.

Speaker 1: 7:34

So, cutting all the cords between ourselves and all of those things. So I'm just going to go ahead and do that right now, if you want that. Right now, I'm cutting those cords for you and for me and I'm just going to take a couple deep breaths. We're going to send all the energy that we've collected in our bodies and ourselves and every in all of our, any of our layers of our being in ourselves, and every in all of our, any of our layers of our being. Um, it's just changed. Um, all of the sugar drama and trauma oh, it's out of battery.

Speaker 1: 8:23

Um so so clearing, pulling, destroying and deleting all of that energy within our bodies, releasing what needs to be released to the light of the Holy Spirit and pouring out anything that needs to be poured out into the earth and alchemizing whatever is left over. Alchemizing it into what do you need. You can decide what you need, that this energy is alchemized into that. Maybe you want strength, maybe you want peace, maybe you want more clarity. Whatever you like, we're going to turn down the inflammation in our collective digestive tract, teaching the body that it can digest what is coming to us. It can digest life and what you are eating is safe, it's tolerable. Safe, it's tolerable. Your body knows how to get the nutrition from it that it needs, the whole thing. It knows how to it does. It's safe, it's allowed and that's what it feels like.

Speaker 1: 10:16

I'm just pulling any, oh, pulling all the gilts of all the sugar we've eaten and all the junk food we've eaten. Reading that a minute ago, feel space in your abdomen opening up, making more space for that which you do desire. Okay, yeah, I'm pulling self-resentment about anything that you've ever eaten. Ooh, that's a big one. Okay, letting the resentment go. Letting the resentment go about what foods you have been given and what foods you have not given and what foods you have not had access to at any point in your life, releasing anger for not receiving the nourishment that you desire and deserve and need to thrive.

Speaker 1: 11:37

And with that's going on, we're just going to send a ton of love to the industrial food complex, to the sugar industry and to the pharmaceutical industry, because I had a conversation with a friend today about how the co-pay for the digestive enzymes that she has to take to survive is a thousand dollars a month, um, unacceptable. And how, uh, nestle has created a monopoly on that drug and made it so. There's no generic. So if you want it, that's the, that's the copay, if you have insurance, if you'd like to live. So, creating big, big, beautiful blessings of love to send to these industries so that they will also be alchemized and supportive of people on this planet right now who need them.

Speaker 1: 12:43

Right, that's a lot of jobs, that's a lot of families supported, asking the divine to bring grace to us so that it can be, the vibration can be raised and it can be made supportive to all of us In the ways that we need as quickly as possible. And, yeah, back to ourselves, bringing forgiveness, right. We're holding this resentment, we're self-judgment, we're holding this guilt. We've let it all go. We're letting it go and we want to forgive ourselves. Right, let's just bring that like cover all self-forgiveness for any, any of the food stuff we are going through or have forgiveness wash through.

Speaker 2: 14:08

Whatever emotions are coming up, is it's perfect? It's really emotional for me.

Speaker 1: 14:18

Breathing through it, making any movements, any sounds you need to make, letting any tears come out that you need to release.

Speaker 2: 14:30

Hopefully no one vomits. That seems to be my MO. I'm a little more dramatic than your average. Tigers um mm okay, feeling better.

Speaker 1: 14:50

So sending you so many blessings on integrating this energy Let your integration be graceful and easy and with zero processing symptoms, and blessings to wherever you're at in the journey. And if you're still here, I want to let you know that I am here to support you in your journey, whether it be food or sex or or love related or all of the above. You can book in sessions with me in my link tree, which is in the comments below, and we'll super quick get to the core of what's going on and alchemize it and you can move forward into the next incredible layer of your journey okay thanks for listening to this episode of the good, the bad and the sexy.

Speaker 3: 15:50

I hope that it served you in some way and, if it did, please reach out to me on Instagram at the good, the bad and the sexy and tell me about it. Also, is there someone in your life who needs to get in on this conversation? I would love it if you would share the show with them. It's so much more fun to talk through these things together. Remember to get your free follow along. Orgasmic alchemy self pleasure audio guide in the show notes below. I look forward to connecting with you again next time. Ciao, for now.